Poem by Ted Hughes

For my father - still waiting for him to crash from the Heavens and reclaim our name and place. This poem speaks to me in the way that Hughes deals with the low, criminal, seedy ranks of the haters.



"God Help the Wolf After Whom the Dogs Do Not Bark"

There you met it - the mystery of hatred.
After your billions of years in anonymous matter
That was where you were found- and promptly hated.
You tried your utmost to reach and touch those people
with gifts of yourself--
Just like your first words as a toddler
When you rushed at every visitor to the house
clasping their legs and crying: I love you! I love you!
Just as you had danced for your father
in the home of anger - gifts of your life
To sweeten his slow death and mix yourself in it
Where he lay propped on the couch.
To sugar the bitterness of his raging death.

You searched for yourself to go on giving it
as if after the nightfall of his going
you danced on in the dark house
Eight years old, in your tinsel.

Searching for yourself, in the dark, as you danced,
floundering a little, crying softly,
like somebody searching for somebody drowning
in dark water,
Listening for them - in panic at loosing
Those listening seconds from your searching--
Then Dancing wildly in silence.

The Colleges lift their heads. It did seem
you disturbed something just perfected
That they were holding carefully, all of a piece,
Till the glue dried. And as if

Reporting some felony to the police
They let you know that you were no Jonne Donne.
You no longer care. Did you save their names?
But then they let you know, day by day,
Their contempt for everything you attempted,
Took pains to inject their bile, as for your health,
into your morning coffee. Even signed
Their homeopathic letters,
Envelopes full of carefully broken glass
To lodge behind your eyes so you would see

Nobody wanted your dance,
Nobody wanted your strange glitter -- your floundering
Drowning life, and your effort to save yourself,
treading water, dancing the dark turmoil,
Looking for something to give-    
                                                  Whatever you found
They bombarded with splinters,
Derision, mud - the mystery of that hatred.